Is it any wonder why I hate winter? Snow, ice...fun! Ugh, and to cap it all, the shops are already stocking Easter stuff! Excuse me all just vomit. (wrinkles nose in disgust) Sorry, but all this just p*sses me off like you wouldn't believe. Hell, it's not like I've got enough on my plate with the J/centre pressuring me into looking for work at the worst time of year for me...and let's not forget the snow.

(screams into a cushion) Sometimes, I wish I could just run away from all of these problems, but I know that wouldn't achieve anything. To me, it's just painful to know that nothing ever changes...why should I care?! (sigh) You know what, living makes me tired of life. I can just look at someone I know be they friend of family, and feel absolutely no connection to them whatsoever.

So yeah, everything's just great...it'll just be the same response, where nobody knows what to say. For once, just once, I'd like to be told that it'll be okay or that I can get through this. Nope, I just get silence.

I don't do well being given handouts and deadlines, as I have tendency to put pressure on myself then shift the blame onto others. Yes, this does concern the A-lvl stuff I was given to work on, but I honestly prefer to study in my own time. Originally, I was looking to improve upon my English but now, that I've gained an insight, I just want to shift my focus onto: grammar punctuation and vocabulary.

Anyway, as for the weather...we've had snow here in Norfolk, of course, this has led to the usual problems of; icy roads, blackouts, etc. As for me, I've had to leave my bike at home today (no way I was going to risk it) and walk in to city centre.

After reading the FB#23, I can see a possible reason why Natsuki's doing a sequel. I mean, sure, the loose ends are tied up but, personally, I think there should have been something more... Perhaps, that's just me, I don't know if I'm alone in thinking that... Anyway, I may just get on a train and go somewhere today, probably North Walsham, haven't been back there for a while. (ponders) Well, I'll decide on a place when I get to train station.

Additional: Before I forget, some petty f*cktard decided to unscrew my brake lever yesterday, which meant having to walk home. Why do something so petty in the first place, I don't get it. Anyway, I found the brake hanging off and the bolt on the ground...

Additional: I ended up going to Yarmouth for a half-day; walked into the marketplace, and the smell of fresh chips... (drools) So, after spending a little while on a walk-about to see what's changed, I bought some chips. (chuckles) Couldn't resist the temptation.

Now that I've got my finances in order, I'm in credit with my energy provider, which is good. So what I've done this week is simply, take advantage of my situation by ordering a new bottom bracket for the bike, and Fruits Basket #23, I'll be called when they're available for collection. Now, as for myself, I'm in process of improving my English skills which will, in the long term, help with the line of work I'm aiming for; proof-reading, and as a side-effect, my story writing. What this means for me is, quite simply, better written English.

Well, I have no idea what will happen after this period of education but, as I have said, things will improve concerning written skills. Already, I have bought myself a book to further my learning.

You know what, I expect you're all just tired of hearing me rant and rave about all the little problems in my life...hell, I don't blame you if you are. (looks away) I'm just...who cares, you've heard it all before anyway, so what difference will it make? (holds my head in my paws) Yeah, I know that the only person who can actually help me, is myself but, that's the problem...I'd be more than happy to just drift along, because I know what's going to happen in the end...and it can't come soon enough.

True, I'm a complex person with a sh*tload of issues and baggage; it's all self-inflicted and I don't care how much harm I do to myself.